If you are lost in this life, this is for you

"If life make sense, then it doesn't make sense"

There have been several beliefs that we are born with soul contract while some says life has meaning and purpose that before we are even born, the God or any higher beings have task us what to do in this life and call it a “life mission.” But what if.... there’s more than that? what if it may be true to some small portion of the population in which you do not belong? what now? That’s why I am writing this to introduce to you a new perspective that there’s more than the thought of what has been introduced to us.

let me be straightforward to you, life doesn’t really make sense, because if it does make sense then it doesn’t make sense specially if you want to be a free-spirited person in this restricted society. Imagine this, you are born in this world for the sake of let’s say building your own business to help people with their daily life problems using your inventions then after that...? what now? are you just gonna wait for your end after you have successfully answered your life mission? or perhaps you’re gonna wait for the next quest? well, if you can bear the thought of that this is not for you to read. Again, imagine you are born just for the SAKE of it and not to experience life. Isn’t it good to think about that you are born to be alive, be loved and experience the beauty of life without making any sense of it. Treating life as an endless adventure rather than a point-to-point journey, achieving goals and mission and once you have it, move on to the next, and next, and next. It feels as though living for the sake of existing from point A to point B. As someone who is fond of freedom, I am simply saying that the concept of having a meaning in this life calling it a life mission or whatever doesn’t make sense, because it removes the whole essence of REALLY experiencing life without any restrictions that “you are only born to be like this, to do this...”

Personally, I am so sick of it. I am so sick of this society condemning and demonizing people who don’t want to follow the society’s demands that they disguised as a “life mission”, “calling” I was lost and feeling sorry for myself because why other people know what to do in life like they have a solid blueprint and planner how they are gonna live their life ‘til the end of it all. So, I tried exploring things (what career to pursue) and following instructions on how to build and find a career and be a functioning member of society. In just a few days, it makes me feel horrible. It is like I am living life in templated mode. I gave up and end that pursuit then look back, questioned myself and my decisions of why am I doing this? and later found out that it is to attain freedom, but it made me question that is attaining freedom really requires slavery? an imprisonment with the pursuit of being free?

Then one time, I have read something in Substack that change my brain chemistry. It has been introduced to me that maybe the reason why I feel lost in this life is because I am actually walking in my own path in this life and not living in someone else’s life, nor a templated path that society lure me to walk through. Then it clicked to me that maybe I am lost because I am free.

So, if you’re like me who feel so lost and can’t seem to find any place in this world, maybe we are not really meant to fit in, nor to do what a normal person would do in this society. Maybe it is an acceptance that we are the only few portions of a raw version of human who accept that we are not far from the animalia, where we are born to just live like what a typical animal does, and typical part of nature does, free-spirited, to loved and be loved, enjoying this life, yourself, and everyone around you, living life with a directionless adventure, making the most of it all, without making any sense. A human.