Thriving In Beauty

Thriving in beauty out of life complexity journal

Here in the Philippines, and Asian community, the glorification of massive height standard has been so prominent, leaving no space for a woman like me who's a small size and also in a petite body type. Growing up, I have always been making fun of because of my body type and that is where such thing as insecurity creeps into my system. Imagine being bullied and people making fun of you for just existing. No children or any people deserve that kind of treatment and experience.

Asian has never been known to have massive size of height specially for women and yet there is no place for woman like me. Imagine going on shopping, finding no size for me and the worse, the salesperson would just advise to go on a kid's section for shoe size. It has been a struggle. How big this nation is and yet, there is no place for small-sized women.

The struggle of having body dysmorphia because of the type of unrealistic beauty standard that society demands for every woman and shame them if it's not being reached is the most diabolical life-threatening experience. It has been so hard dealing with all of these specially, the community for a small size woman like me is nowhere to be found. There's Morena beauty, plus size community, but no place for woman like me who's constantly being shamed just because of the length of my legs.

Thankfully, despite of having the lack of access to community for a small-size woman like me, still I have several deep connections to people that love me for who I am. They never failed to remind me that I am beautiful and valuable no matter what size I am which then empowers me to build confidence to myself—being shameless and unapologetic for who I am, and how I look like. Moreover, never feeling sorry again for never fitting in the demand of society to me. I came into conclusion that my place in this society has never been created, that's why it has always been a missing piece to me because I will be the one would carve my place here—having my own way, my own place, my own community.